What a wonderful world...

As I sit here and it is almost 1am I have so much that I am thinking of. I had a wonderful birthday and I have to say it was because I have such amazing people in my life. Between the texts, calls, comments and the lucky ones who got to party with me that night, I was just so lucky to have so much love. That is honestly the best gift a person can have. It is not about material things, but the people who share with you in that special day and I had many.

It makes me just keep thinking back to what I have been through the past two and a half months. I know I have said it before but I am just so grateful for what I have gained through it all. Some amazing friendships that will last a lifetime. The positive outlook I have gained through all the sadness and reality of the things I have faced. The motivation I have to make my future bright and successful. The amazing love and strength Derrek and I have gained as a couple. All of these things came from something that is honestly the worst thing I could have imagined to happen at that time in my life.

Often times lately I have jumped to conclusions and have gotten concerned so easily over things that are not worth it. Because I have had so many great things lately I am so use to something going wrong so it is as if I am on guard for that thing to happen. So sometimes I catch myself trying to hard to please people in my friendships because of the fear of losing them. I am trying to stop this as it will cause problems if I keep questioning things. It is not the person or people at all! It is my past. I think that is my hardest thing is leaving the past in the past. So that is what I am going to be working on for a little while...trusting life is good and that something bad does NOT have to happen. Enjoy what I have and think about the present not the past or even future. That is my goal for this month.

I can not say thank you enough to the amazing people in my life who are still by my side on my bad days when I break down. For the people with countious encouraging words and not the statements such as "I know how you feel" and "it will all be okay". You know who you are and I am blessed to have you!!!

XOXO,
Megs