Sleep problems

Another night of being up at 5am. I am so tired of not being able to sleep. I try and do anything to help with it. I have done relaxation techniques, drugs, herbal things like tea, warm showers, and anything else you can think about. I hate it, I want to be able to get up at 10am because I go to bed at a decent hour. I have even tried the last couple days getting up early no matter what time I go to bed, and it still does not help. I get to the point...like right now...that I should not go to sleep. It is 5am and I am afraid that when I do fall asleep then I wont be able to get up at a decent hour, therefore wasting a day with Derrek. Why can I not just be normal? Or be like Derrek who sleeps just fine! AHHHHH

On to other things, getting a job here seems to not be so easy. I have applied for 4 jobs and now I just wait. I hear it is very hard to get a job in El Paso as they expect you to speak both English and Spanish. I think that is stupid as I am in the US. Maybe that is mean of me to say, but I think that is dumb. I am very educated in other things but if I can not speak a foreign language I can't work somewhere. I also decided I am not settling on something like a retail job as I did at Irwin, it is not worth it. I would rather not where then work somewhere that will not help me, make me happy or better my future. I mean that are TONS of military wives that do not work and they are just fine. So we do not need it for the money, I just like to work to stay busy and help learn children more.

Well for now this is it...


XOXO,
Megs

Trying to get orgnaized.

Well we finally recieved our household goods. In ways I wish we had not. The apartment is to small for everything we had before. I am so overwhelmed with the boxes everywhere. We have unpacked a lot but I still feel like we have not. It is hard to unpack and get orgnaized when all these boxes are in the way. It is so furstrating. I wish I could just have someone come do it for me the way I invision it. haha.

We are learning we do not need as much stuff as we had. I have no idea why we have some of the stuff we did. We have so many clothes and I even got rid of so many before we left Irwin. So I will be going through those again once we are all the way unpacked. We just do not have the storage we did at Irwin. We are going to go buy the spacevac things and hope that helps with some winter clothes and such. Man I just hate moving. I just want to be settled already and it to feel like home!

XOXO,
Megs

Friends+Moving=Lonely

So we moved to El Paso and Granted I was only there for a few days before leave to come visit my family on the East Coast...I hate moving. I hate making GOOD friends and then getting comfortable with them and leaving again. It is hard to keep in contact with friends. It is even harder when they still have friends and a life, while I do not have that. I have Derrek but you still need friends. Not living on base this time will make it even harder to make friends. I hate that. I hate being so insecure. I am always afriad if I do not talk to my best friend or godo friend each day that we are growing apart. Stupid I know...but I can not help that feeling. Why is that? I get jealous so easily when old friends go out or have fun. That is so childish I feel. I need a life. lol I am not good with the making good friends and moving and having to start over. AHHHHHHH! I need to stop being overemotional...and trust in my TRUE friends I have made! No one is doing anything wrong, but me, not trusting in the bonds I have with some amazing people!

XOXO,
Megs

Oh so much...so quickly

Well everyone I hoped to get more updates on the honeymoon trip but I tried to avoid the computer besides for homework. I will try and get some updates and pictures from the trip soon! It has been crazy. We got back from our trip Sunday morning. I got very sick with some bad cold...not the swine flu! It is funny though when I cough in public and people look at me as if I am killing them. I get some BAD cold every like 6 months. It tricked me this time and waiting 7-8months. So I have been battling that. I sound like a manly man with my voice too! ;-)
Anyway's we got back Sunday morning to Colorado and left Tuesday morning to Texas. We got here late Tuesday night and went and signed Derrek in at the post and stayed at a hotel. The post is HUGE! It is like a new world compared to Fort Irwin. It is very nice too!
Wednesday we came and signed for our apartment. The manager of the apartments was super sweet and helpful. We got a 2 bedroom/2 bath! It is about 950 sq. ft. and within our BAH (housing money the army gives us). It is a gated community and has on site security who is a Texas patrol. So we are liking it even though there have been delays on getting our household goods released from storage in CA and sent here. So that is hard but we are getting by.

On Wednesday the car was acting up so we had to take it into the shop. The guy there was super nice too and very helpful calling around trying to get us a rental car. So finally we found a place and he took us there. So we had a rental car which was like $50 for ONE day! That was crazy but we did not have a choice. Come to find out there were like 3 things wrong with the car. It needed a tune up and new plugs and such. It needs a new belt and something else with that. So the guy suggested if we could not afford it all today ($800) that at least do the tune up and get the belt replaces ASAP. So we did that. While I am gone next week Derrek is going to take it back and have the other $300 work done. The guy was super helpful and nice though. So far the customer service here in TX has been GREAT! I was concerned at first but so far I am impressed. As much as I hate that the car was acting up I feel grateful...it waited till we got here rather than the ride down and I have had it for 3 years with no problems but to replace the clutch which was my fault. So I am very lucky.

Well Saturday my mom is coming to TX to pick me up and we are going to go get Shawn from school. The orginial plan was Derrek and I were both going with her than our honeymoon...but the army did not like that. So because we are mostly settled depsite not having HHG, I decided I really wanted to go with my mom. I Really want to see Josh too and we are going too. We are going to also stop in VA for a few days so I am super stoked! Besides being away from Derrek it will be great! I miss my family. Well this is already longer than I planned. More updates to come soon I hope!

XOXO,
Megs