Sleep problems

Another night of being up at 5am. I am so tired of not being able to sleep. I try and do anything to help with it. I have done relaxation techniques, drugs, herbal things like tea, warm showers, and anything else you can think about. I hate it, I want to be able to get up at 10am because I go to bed at a decent hour. I have even tried the last couple days getting up early no matter what time I go to bed, and it still does not help. I get to the point...like right now...that I should not go to sleep. It is 5am and I am afraid that when I do fall asleep then I wont be able to get up at a decent hour, therefore wasting a day with Derrek. Why can I not just be normal? Or be like Derrek who sleeps just fine! AHHHHH

On to other things, getting a job here seems to not be so easy. I have applied for 4 jobs and now I just wait. I hear it is very hard to get a job in El Paso as they expect you to speak both English and Spanish. I think that is stupid as I am in the US. Maybe that is mean of me to say, but I think that is dumb. I am very educated in other things but if I can not speak a foreign language I can't work somewhere. I also decided I am not settling on something like a retail job as I did at Irwin, it is not worth it. I would rather not where then work somewhere that will not help me, make me happy or better my future. I mean that are TONS of military wives that do not work and they are just fine. So we do not need it for the money, I just like to work to stay busy and help learn children more.

Well for now this is it...


XOXO,
Megs