I want to fix it.

I remember now more and more who I am. I love being the ear to someones problems. I love being the girl advice giver to guy friends. I love being able to make someone smile when they are having a bad day. But what I do not love is watching someone I care about be in pain and there is nothing I can do.

You know you really care about someone when they are crying and you start crying! It hurt me to see her hurt and know nothing I could say would make it better for her. It hurts me now to know emotionally and physically she is going through something no 22 year old should have to go through. I want to fix it! I want to take it all away. Good people do not deserve some of the crap they get. There are so many mean and evil people out there who never experience hardships as I have or she has. It is not fair!!! I know that is part of life, but it does not mean I can not be mad about it. I want to take her pain from her and ease her worries and i can not.

I also hate being hundreds miles away from my husband as he is struggling with an injury. It is not the end of the world but it is emotionally affecting him because they have him on a profile (not being able to do PT or hold weapons) and missing class for DR appts. I know he psychically is okay but i hate seeing...well hearing him down and knowing I can not do much.

Why can't I be superwoman and fix everyones hardships? That is what I want! I do not want ot see people I love suffer!

XOXO,
Meg
P.S. Me out having fun enjoying life for the first time in two months....