A movie...

So I am sitting here with tears in my eyes and tons of thoughts going through my head. I just watched Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2 by myself. I was tired of trying to get someone to watch it with me. As I was watching it I was filled with so much emotion and found myself longing for so much.
I long for friendships like that. I feel like I will never have something that stable and constant. I am tired of people coming and going in my life. I want to have friendships like the girls in the movie do. They fight yes, but they make up. They trust in one another, they are there for one another through everything. Why is that something so hard to find? To have people you can always count on and you know you will never be replaced. You know no matter where you live you will always have that. Am I crazy to long for something like that?
I have always wanted to have one or a couple friends you go to with EVERYTHING! You feel comfortable just stopping by. You feel comfortable letting them see you cry and hurt. You are not afraid of judgement. You know they will understand and if they do not they will listen. You know you will have that friendship for LIFE! Not just while you are near by. I understand it is hard to stay in touch when you leave somewhere, but why can't it just happen. I feel like I am fighting a fight that is impossible. Something that is not ever going to happen. I am 22-years-old and still do not have that friendship that they do in the movie. Yes I know it is a movie, but does that mean it can not be reality? I just want that. I feel incomplete because I do not have something like that. I have had that relationship with some girls over the years, but it always seems to be for a little bit, not forever. I have been used, taken advantage of, not appreciated in some friends in my past, will that ever change? Will anyone ever want the same thing I do? Will I connect with someone like that? Will someone else watch that movie and cry because they are so touched by those relationships and long for the same thing?

I am crazy I know! It is just something I always dreamed of having and I am afraid to never heave experienced something like that, that is long-lasting not just temporary. I feel stupid and petty to even want something like this so bad. Almost like I am pathetic. Well just wanted to share my thoughts, dreams, fears and emotions about something that is bothering me so much, not just because of the movie, but because I have wanted this for so long!

XOXO,
Megs