Well sorry Kelly this post is not as positive as I have been, just a warning.
So I am sitting here and looking at everyones new pictures and such on myspace. It feels like everyone is pregnant. I know it is selfish or mean of me, but it makes me mad. It is hard looking at all these women pregnant. Some younger, some older, some first child, some not, either way it is just hard. It is hard not to thinking about where I would be if I was still pregnant. These are the moments that make it all so hard.
I feel so....alone right now. I just wish I would wake up and be pregnant again, so I can experience all that these women are. It is just not fair!! I know I know...everything happens for a reason, but it is in these moments that I do not feel it and see that it is okay. I know it will pass, but even for the little time I am experiencing this feeling, makes me feel so depressed. I assume this is normal as I only miscarried a little over a week ago. I just do not like thinking about it all and it all being done. No shopping for baby, no getting a bigger belly, no baby shower, no any of that. Well this is a little of how i feel tonight and it is moments like this were being in Derrek's arms would be so comforting...Off to bed soon because I do not want to continue with this feeling.
XOXO,
Megs
Keys
16 years ago
1 comment:
It's okay to be let down hunny, there are lots of bumps in the road before you will start to feel healed. You will have good days and bad! I love u and am always here to talk when you need me!
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